Thusness · John Tan

The Observer and the Taste of Presence · Chapter 3 · Part II

Ignorance and Its Habit

A reader finishes Part I and agrees with every line. The witness was not found, vividness did not need a viewer, and the argument holds. The next morning someone says something unkind, and within a second there is a someone who was hurt, a someone who now plans a reply. The reader notices this, and the noticing is itself something that appears in the same way. Nothing in the earlier argument was false. It simply did not reach the place where the habit works.

That gap is the subject of this chapter.

Not knowing, and not seeing

Buddhist traditions name the root of suffering ignorance, avidyā. The word is easy to misread as a lack of information. A person who has never been told how the planets move is ignorant in that sense, and the remedy is to tell them. The ignorance meant here is different. It is a misrecognition of how appearing already is. In Dzogchen the term is ma rigpa, non-recognition: appearing is taken as fixed, and its unfixed, dependent character goes unrecognised. Nothing hidden is waiting behind it to be found. The remedy is not a fact to learn but a seeing that was overlooked. Ma rigpa is not a translation of avidyā. The two name the same root, the first from the side of what is not recognised and the second from the side of what is not known, and the overlap should not be taken for identity.

This distinction runs through the rest of the book. If ignorance were a missing belief, a good argument could fill it. If ignorance is a habit of not seeing, then argument can only reach a belief about the habit, and the habit carries on working.

The pattern runs before reasoning

The sequence in an ordinary moment is quick, and it is hard to catch because it does not feel like a sequence. Something contacts the senses or the mind. The contact is at once arranged into a seer, a seeing and a seen. A feeling follows: pleasure or pain, attraction or pulling away, a faint tightening or a sense of ease. Then reasoning begins, and it takes the arrangement as the fact it has to deal with. By the time a thought forms, the frame is already in place, and the thought defends it.

Reasoning is not the source. It arrives late and borrows the frame's grammar. This is why people who can argue skilfully against a self can still be wounded by a slight. The argument happened in one place and the wound in another, and the habit that moves between them was never touched.

Why insight does not dislodge it

Here the book has to be honest about itself. Anatta insight can come as a real breakthrough. A reader can see that the one who hears is not found, and feel the relief of it. But very soon the insight starts to be used. "There is no self" becomes something to understand, to hold and to defend, and the one who understands it is the seer again, now standing with a new view. The habit does not object to the new view. It absorbs it.

Analysis works the same way. A reader who examines the self with reasoning is using the same frame to do it. The question "who is looking?" presumes a looker. Each new analysis builds a fresh subject-object relation around whatever it examines, and then treats the result as neutral. The framework does not merely survive the argument. It produces the argument.

This is what the tradition means when it says ignorance is not dissolved by knowledge. Knowledge about ignorance is one more thing known, and the one who knows it is one more seer.

Why logic is needed after all

If insight is not enough and the habit absorbs reasoning, why go on to logic at all? Because the habit is most persuasive when nothing challenges it. An argument that shows how the frame is assumed, rather than found, gives the seeing something to rest on when the feelings are strong. The logics in the next chapter do not replace the seeing. They help keep it steady while the habit tries to take it back.

That is also why the logics have to be shown using the same words as the habit, while beginning from somewhere else. Chapter 4 takes that up.

The felt side of the habit

The structuring is not only conceptual. Consider what goes with the sense that someone has been hurt. The chest may tighten. Breath shortens. Attention narrows to a point and draws in. The world feels further off, and the self feels more solid and more in need of protection or repair. When the frame loosens, the same body may soften, the breath lengthen, the attention open.

The chapter offers a claim about experience for inspection: the seer-seen split is felt as contraction, and contraction is felt as a self. Readers can test this in their own experience without accepting it first. In a moment of irritation or loss, notice whether the sense of being wronged arrives with a particular tightening, and whether that tightening eases when the sense of someone being wronged is not taken as a fact. This is an introspective observation, not a controlled finding, and it should be tested before it is believed.

What the habit is made of

The habit rests on at least four supports, and each can be looked at directly.

Grammar. Language gives the subject-predicate form, which places a stable doer behind every act. The section "Do we actually think substantially?" in Chapter 4, Two Logics, shows how far this reaches. It is not a theory anyone chose, and it is not removed by saying that everything changes.

Memory. The self is assembled from remembered episodes, and the remembering is treated as proof that a rememberer exists. But the remembering appears as an event, like the sound of rain, and it can be looked at in the same way.

Naming. A name is attached to a stream of experience and then given the job of standing for a continuing holder. The name is useful. It is a designation, not a holder.

The need for a ground. This may be the deepest support. Uncertainty feels like falling, and so a floor is looked for beneath experience. That wish is what the later chapters trace through the substrates. It is also what makes the habit feel like a necessity rather than a choice.

Seeing the pattern, not fighting it

The practical conclusion is that the first step is to see the pattern as a pattern. The aim is not to replace it with a better picture, and it is not to suppress the feelings that arrive with it. A new positive account of "the true nature" beneath the seer would only build a second seer. Madhyamaka's distinction between a negation that installs nothing and one that installs a replacement is the guide here. The pattern is seen as something added, and the adding is noticed without a substitute put in its place.

Seeing the pattern can be brief. A thought of "I" arises, and it is noticed as a thought. A feeling of being wronged arises, and it is noticed as tightness, heat, narrowing. Nothing is done to it. The looking is enough to show that the seer was not standing where the habit said it stood.